you look so beautiful tonight
you make it hard to breathe
i am leaving the ground
and it feels alright to me
my heart is pounding
we have come so far
in this moment now
together beneath the stars
soon you will be leaving
to journey to the sea
but my heart will be there with you
hoping someday you’ll come back to me
and if inside the sunset
you begin to think of me
know that i am with you
and love will set you free
The time I was falling
I was leaving myself behind
I was never there
I was always ahead of time
A vacant space
An open window
A long way down
A blanket offender
A series of mornings
Finding my way home
To the iron earth
I make you my own
My body is weak
But my eyes are cold steel
I will swallow my blood
And chew on the fat
Until my mind begins to heal
I walk with a wind
I puzzle my pound
I stare at the sky
And hold onto my ground
I’ve been waiting for a message
Ignoring many signs
Learning how to hear you
Dissolving into mind
Having another answer
Unable to question free
Having only fragments
Anytime you question me
You haven’t made it back
From your journey to the sea
While others search for shore
I wait only for the end of me
Sometimes I feel so alone in this world
on this rock that we call our home.
Sometimes I feel connected to everything
and trees grow exactly as they should.
I know I must not wait for death
even though I love to dream at night.
My thoughts are still most days.
Still, most days are my thoughts.
I’ve been thinking of you,
and staring at the sun.
Far enough away to feel like
I’m the only one.
I have lain awake at night,
while sleeping through the day.
Close enough to you to feel
like I could find a way.
Holding nothing in my hands
to give for you to show,
Meeting all of these demands
is harder than you know.
Nothing I could ever buy
could show you how I feel.
Still, I feel I have to try-
my love for you is real.
Each of us must walk alone
the path that we arrange.
Every life that I have known
has brought with it a change.
Waking up can hurt a bit
erasing what we’ve learned.
Fighting down the urge to quit
’till evey page is turned.
The end will always bring us near
to wherever we began.
Circling along the track
according to the plan.
All of this has come before
as it will come again.
Left forever wanting more
the destiny of men.
As I Have Expected
So Have I Collected
My Intentions in Extension
A Culmination of My Creation
A Dance in Chance of Circumstance
Disconnected as Expected
Unperfected and Rejected
Desolation Despairation
Destination Detonation
Releasing Control
Increasingly Whole
Without Any Doubt That Life Is About to be Found All Around
Contained in a Sound That I Found to Astound
Designed to Remind Us Our Thoughts Are Behind Us
Blinding Our Mind
The Sign of Mankind
We Stumble Asunder
Worry and Wonder
Cumbersome Under Enslumbering Blunder
Concentrating~Contemplating
Captivating~Culminating
Consecrating~Compensating
Consummating~Complicating
Soon You Will See.. Something In Me
Finding The Key.. Setting Us Free
Trying to Hide.. Feeling Denied
Holding Inside.. Someone Beside Us To..
Show Us The Way
And Bring Us The Day
And Make It Okay
To Throw This Away
We Will Begin to Know From Within
No One Will Win~And Nothing Is Sin
Every Second-
Silence Sews a Secret Sense of Steady Searching
Seeing Simple People Stumble
Under Subtle Bubbles
Smothering Each Other
Stumbling They Suffer
Still, I Sit
A Single Solid Stone
Stopped Beside a Stream (of dreams) Alone
Scraped and Sliced With Sacrifice
My Surface Stings
Stowing Inside Insightful Cycle Style Circuit Patterns
Splattered Spirals Scrawled in Spectrums
Sectioned in Separate Surrounding Scenes (as if in a dream)(that’s how it seems)
I Stand and Scan
For Scattered Symbols
Scrambled Symphonies, Symmetries, Sophistication, and Circulation Sensations
Scripted in Ciphers-
Synchronistic Systems Suggesting a Serious Series of Sequences
I Study
Stationed in Solitaire
Sewing in Silence the Seeds of Suppression
Soon My Submission Position Will Splinter
Suddenly Sending Dissension Descending
Spinning Unspoken Disturbing Supposed Assumptions Supporting Distorted Perception Deceptions
I’m Feeling You (all)
Falling Down Again
Alone In My Pod and Praying For You
(god)
Seeing Me Flowering- Dreaming Forever
Seeing the Sun Like I’m The Only One
Reaching So Deeply
Feeling So Perfect and So Purposefully Perfectly Purply
Nothing Has Changed Since We Chose All Our Names
Has Anyone Else Survived?
Am I the Only Person Alive?
Watching the Sheep (pray me to sleep)
Everything That I Have Said
Still Is Sitting In My Head
Rarely Fed, and
Almost Dead
Is This a Page That I Have Read?
Is This a Drop of Blood That I Have Bled?
Bleeding Without Meaning- Every Time I Try to Go to Bed
Thinking Some Things- Having Some Dreams
As a Menial Being
Sunbeams on Some Dreams Bring Some Things Some Meanings
Freerly Seeing the Scenery Receding Bleakly
As We Speak Seemingly Discreetly
You’re Sneaking Sleepily~I’m Speedily Seeking a Peaking Reality…
A Fallacy Failing Formerly Fortunate Families Foully
Forgive Me
Being Meaning,
Meaning Being
please understand it’s hard to express my sadness and stress.
i don’t know when i can smile again. i feel so hopeless.
i’ve dug myself a hole six feet underground. i don’t see a way.
always thought i’d see the road ahead of me, but it slipped away.
watch my life desentegrate as my problems complicate.
i can’t seem to concentrate. i feel my hope evaporate.
watch me survive the stress i sustain just to stay alive.
chronic introspect- forever disconnect. devoid and deprived.
watch my life desentegrate as my problems complicate.
i can’t seem to concentrate. i feel my hope evaporate.
within reach i suffocate
learning i am hopeless
growing no more numb
yearningly i focus on
how empty i’ve become
try to bring me back
try to give me air
if i should be breathing
i’m completely unaware
losing any touch
slowly letting go
forgetting everyone i’ve met
and everything i know
reaching for the sky
feeling for the sun
far enough away to feel
like i’m the only one
