This energy within me
flexing my fists at the darkening corners of my little cave
What’s inside of me
is breaking up
and coming loose in all directions.
through this darkness.
and no one.
in this cold and darkened night,
Like a falling star.
No one knows where we are.
If we are dying, there’s only one way out.
To the lizard, you will appear from above.
An oddly shaped thunderstorm
And what does a wizard fear?
Like a flash of lightning.
I draw you, but not like you draw.
A series of campfires.
A gazing technique between lovers.
Suppose life is no more death than anything else.
Everything to catch a raindrop in a leaf.
In my encapsulated existence,
I strain to capture this
entire moment of eternity.
If I must learn to speak,
I will sing,
if I must remember,
I will learn to create
and in the noise,
I pray myself awake-
unsure of the legitimacy of my memory.
I’m just a man made of meat
with a smile.
Growing on a rock;
coming into season.
Alive without a reason.
The body is sleeping.
If the fire grows on, it will consume me.
I tear at it’s beauty.
I was in love before I even knew your name.
I would do it all again for a little more time with you.
I do not get the purpose of my life yet
Most of it has been spent alone
It is at these times hopeless that I ask myself
Is this a gift I’ve been shown
Solitude brings wisdom outside looking in from
The hours that most people sleep
A knowledge of life takes hold and thoughts that are real unfold
My soul can be seen because my eyes are deep
I cannot heal all this pain that I feel
These nights that I spend with only me
I slowly suffocate
waiting til morning breaks
it seems like an eternity
Crumbling into your hands
Filter me through your mind
Darkness envelops and you can’t see a thing
Pain is all you will find